Patience is a Virtue

Waiting is hard. No matter what you are waiting for you are either waiting anxiously or wishing that time would slow down. In our case, we wanted it to hurry up and get here. Now it's here and we kind of wish we had more time. We've spent most of the last 3.5 months saving money for this day and when it came, we had spent almost all of our savings. Why you ask? Because we went on vacation and bought a new car and thought we had enough time after returning home to rebuild our savings before we got the phone call. We returned home on Sunday, 2 June. We received the phone call with a surgery date, on Wednesday 5 June. Sadly we had no time between returning home and getting our phone call to make the proper changes and additions to our savings account. So now we are scrambling to get Jay to Seattle in time for his surgery next week. While this is stressful, we are so excited for this to finally be happening. 

While I stress, pull string and beg family for help, we are at the point we've been waiting for since February. We started our journey in February when we made the decision to expand our family. While this is a big step, it's only the first step. We fought for about a month and half to get on a wait list at a military installation that preforms vasectomy reversals, until we finally got on the list at Joint Base Lewis McChord's Madigan Army Medical Hospital. We were told at the end of March that the wait would be around 4-6 months. Every week since Jay was put on the wait list, he has called the Urology clinic to ask if there has been any progress and an estimate on how much longer he'd be on the list. He even made a phone call this Tuesday (4 June) and heard the same thing we have been hearing since day one, you are 24th on the list, no scheduled surgeries and none have been preformed. We were losing hope. Scratch that, I think we lost hope, we were just going through the motions at this point to see if it would turn out. I never thought we'd get a phone call the following day to be scheduled for surgery 5 days later.

So as of right now, Jay should fly into Seattle on Sunday 9 June and he'll have his pre-op appointment on Monday 10 June with surgery on 11 June. It's not looking like I'll be able to go with him since we weren't able to build up our savings again, we'll be lucky to scrap together enough to get Jay to Seattle, a hotel room and a car for the 4 days he's there but at least we'll be able to get it done! Now we have to PRAY that this surgery works and that we are able to get pregnant. We're hoping to get pregnant sometime in the next 6 months but we've heard that it could take up to 18 months, if the surgery is a go. Lots and lots of variables and we're betting on them all. 

So we're stressing quite a bit right now, due to trying to get Jay up there and getting the surgery done. Stressing that it goes well, stressing that we're able to get pregnant sooner than later. Stressing that we CAN get pregnant. Stressing that if/when we do get pregnant, that my birth options remain the way I want them. Just plain ol' stressing. I know one way or another things will work out but I just can't help but stress. It's my nature. I almost enjoy it. Anyway, things are looking up, even if we aren't as prepared as we had planned to be but it's all in God's hands and we have to trust in Him.

<3 
Traci