tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36580057724289443212024-03-13T19:16:59.791-07:00Our Journey From Cesarean to Natural BirthWe're an Army family with what people don't realize is a very normal story. My husband, Jay missed both births of his boys because of deployment and I, Traci, had two cesarean births despite my desperate attempts not to. Here is our story of our 3rd attempt at a natural birth. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15381151202593769587noreply@blogger.comBlogger60125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-28565999447569192912015-03-18T14:51:00.000-07:002015-03-18T14:52:26.557-07:00Labor Notes from My Birth Doula<b><u><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Parker's Birth Notes - February 26th, 2015</span></u></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">4:30-5 Gyro (Contractions started around 6 p.m.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">7 p.m. Water broke, lightly stained</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">7:21 Phone call from Jay, you'd like me to come. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">8:30 I suggest we all leave you alone so you can rest in between. Contractions every 3 minutes, about 35 seconds. (Everyone except Jay, goes to the dining room to wait for labor to progress)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">8:40 Casey leaves, says she can come back at any time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10:09 "Last 8 contractions are lasting a minute or longer." - Jay </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10:17 Loud vocalization & I check in with you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10:23 You want me to stay in the room with you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10:35 I insist that you get up to use the restroom. You are not happy when I suggest you stay on the toilet for another contraction.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10:45 You say you're pushing during the contraction.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10:47 You request the tub, but I suggest waiting for Madeleine as I know she's nearly here.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:09 Madeleine says baby is so low, you must be complete. Tammy suggest low sounds when you bear down.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:10 Heart rate "Good!" Madeleine says</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:12 Madeleine suggest you make your hips wider as you push.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:17 Madeleine says "He's right there"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:26 " asks if you want to touch his head, you do and exclaim "Oh my God!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:27 Heart rate check "great" Madeleine says</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:33 Madeleine attempts to feel for baby, you tell her not to touch & Madeleine tells Tammy she thought baby may be crowning</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:35 "I've never wanted anything out of my body so bad."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:36 Madeleine: "This is great, he's just molding".</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:38 "I can feel him right there, it hurts so bad."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:39 Madeleine dons her headlamp</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:47 Madeleine suggests getting out of the tub, maybe the stool? "Noooo!" You say. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In between contractions you rest your head on your hands.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Extra long pushes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:51 You look at the clock & roll your eyes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:57 Madeleine suggests you hold the noise in, focus all your energy down.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:58 Tammy suggests that you rock your hips.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11:59 "Gimme your hands" you tell Jay</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">February 27th</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:01 "I'm sorry"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:02 Heart rate ✅ (Check) "He's very low in that canal"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:08 "I felt like he was just going to come out" you say after this contraction. Jay says "That's good!" Madeleine again suggests changing position, perhaps the toilet, the hot water can exhaust you. "I feel like water makes them less intense" you say.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:10 Change position, you move to sit on the tub "step" with Jay sitting behind you. Your wedding day picture mirrors the scene. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Tammy: "I see his head, go ahead and feel him"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Jay: "That's all he was waiting for, the 27th!" </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Madeleine: "You're doing so great, He's right there!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:16 "it's cold" fan off</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:23 You ask: "Does he go back in?" Madeleine explains only slightly, to where he's comfortable.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:25 Heart rate check, but stops as contraction starts.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:27 Tammy explains that baby needs to come under your pubic bone, and to bring your pelvis forward . Heart rate good.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:29 Madeleine suggests you change position, if only for a few minutes. You move to the birth stool.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:32 "The urge to push is always there" you say, "I don't like this".</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:36 Heart rate check, "the heart rate is slow, let's get him out."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:38 Move to the bed, with Jay sitting behind you</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">12:49 Baby born! "MOM!!!" you yell</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">1:27 Grandma (Gigi) gets to hold her brand new grandson </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">1:28 Jay: "You smell like a bait shop!" - "I like you"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Congratulations!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">❤️ Lea</span></div>
Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-1321050604906642662015-03-07T20:04:00.001-07:002015-03-07T20:45:34.390-07:00My baby is here!<span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">From about 38 weeks, I had been having contractions off and on. There were a few days when I truly believed Parker would be born that day but then the contractions would just fade away. As I got closer and closer to his estimated due date (February 24th), I got more and more anxious for him to arrive.<br /><br />The morning of his due date, I was slightly discouraged to find that I woke up with very faint contractions, more like Braxton Hicks. I decided since I hadn't gone into labor yet that we should visit the birth stones in Wahiawa. Jay was working an early shift and arrived home at 1pm so we got the boys ready and headed to Target to get mom and Mayre (my sister) leis for their arrival that evening but we picked up one more lei to take with us to the birth stones as an offering. I let my doula know of my plan to go to the birth stones so she loads up her daughter and joins us up there. It was absolutely gorgeous and relaxing to be up there. I can definitely see why the Hawaiian Royalty would come here to give birth. There was just something so magical about that place. I asked the stones for a quick, healthy and beautiful home birth. I forgot to ask for it to be sooner than later but I figured the implication was there.<br /><br />Lea took pictures of the whole area. It was beautiful and I was so ready for the baby to come! </span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">We picked up some Maui Mike's rotisserie chicken on our way home. When we got home, we had some dinner and relaxed a bit before heading down to the airport to pick up my mom and sister. No labor that night or the next day. I was 40 weeks and 2 days when we decided to stop waiting for the baby and try to enjoy the island a little bit with family.<br /><br />So, w</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">e drove up to the North Shore to see the surfers, had lunch at Haleiwa Joe's where they made me these awesome shrimp tacos (not on the menu/special order) and then we enjoyed some shave ice before we headed over to one of the surf shops. About that time, I noticed my ankles were beginning to swell a bit so I decided it was time to head home so I could rest. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">When we arrived home, I took a shower to rinse off the day and relax a bit before dinner. Around 5pm I ate some dinner and we all settled in to watch the movie, "Lucy". During the movie, I noticed my back was hurting so I laid down on a mattress on the floor my sister had been using to sleep on. I started having sporadic but painful contractions. About an hour into the movie, I decided I would feel better in my own bed so I got up and went to my bedroom. While standing at the end of my bed, I noticed a small gush and rushed into the bathroom just as my water broke into the toilet. It was slightly murky but not dark. It was a yellowy brown. I immediately called my midwife to tell her but she didn't answer. So I called her assistant, Jaymie and described what I was seeing. She couldn't see the pictures I sent her so she had me send them to Madeleine. She said the water was lightly stained but we didn't need to be alarmed.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">I then had Jay call my doula, Lea and ask that she come right away. I texted a friend, Casey to bring me pads so I could be around the house without leaking fluid everywhere. I thought I'd have some time between my water breaking and the contractions becoming unbearable. I was wrong. Time then became unnoticed to me. I laid in bed, breathing through my contractions mostly on my hands and knees. My water broke right around 7 pm. I decided around 7:45 that we should get the boys ready for bed so I wasn't worried about them. My contractions had been around 3 minutes apart at that point but while the boys were saying good night to me, I had a 4 minute break. It's like the boys being near me slowed my labor enough so I could tend to them. We sent them to bed just before 8pm I think. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">Lea arrived at some point, maybe around 8pm right after we sent the kids to bed and she definitely helped me calm down. She suggested that I rest between contractions and had everyone leave the room except for Jay. I remember laying down with my pregnancy pillow between my knees and drifting to sleep between contractions. I'd get about 2-3.5 minutes of rest before I would yank myself up onto all fours to breathe through the contraction. Sometimes I would rock back and forth on my knees to help with the pain. I started having minute long contractions and I was beginning to struggle through my contractions for the next two to two and half hours when the urges to push began. I was begging for Madeleine so I could get into the tub. I wasn't sure if I was still to early and I didn't want to stall my labor by getting in too soon. It was now 11pm when Madeleine arrived and I had already had a few urges to push so Madeleine said to just go with them if they were coming.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">Then I got into the tub and every contraction came with an urge to push. I tried to push in the tub and he'd make some progress but never could get him to crown. While in the tub, I asked Madeleine to see how far I was and she said I was complete and his head was right there. I reached down and felt his head for the first time! While in the tub, I would push and push but I never felt like he was going to come out. Only once or twice would I feel a sensation around my vagina that he might crown but it always went away when the pushing stopped. Between each contraction I would lay my head down on the side of the tub and just rest. I was exhausted. I don't think I've ever been as exhausted as I was during the pushing. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.8000001907349px;">He was born at 12:49am 27 February 2015. He was 9lbs 4oz and 22" long. My big baby came with a massive noggin measuring 14.25"! I gave birth after just under 6 hours of labor and lots of fighting through thoughts of defeat. I can honestly say this was one of the hardest things I've ever done!! My beautiful home birth after 2 cesareans!</span>Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-22029933530195257342015-02-21T21:36:00.001-07:002015-02-21T21:36:32.448-07:00Approaching 40 weeks pregnantAs I'm sure many people are wondering how I'm doing as I approach my 40th week of pregnancy, I'm over being asked. At 38 weeks, I deactivated my Facebook page and went silent for the most part. The constant question of if I've had the baby yet is really annoying and I was becoming irritable. As I get closer to my due date, people have taken to asking my close friends and family if I've had the baby yet. <div><br></div><div>When did this stop being MY news to share? No, I have not had Parker yet. Please don't call or text my mom or husband (or anyone else) to ask if I have. We will tell the world when we are ready. I do understand that everyone is excited and trust me no one is more ready for this baby to be born than I am. But I am not just having another baby here, I am overcoming eight, yes...EIGHT years of birth trauma. I am gearing up to do one of the hardest yet most rewarding things I will ever do in my whole life. I don't need the constant questions or check ups. I need love, support and my peace. Almost exactly eight years ago I was taken down a path in my birth I wasn't mentally, emotionally or physically ready to go down. I spent several months with postpartum depression and I was on antidepressants after giving birth to Jayson. I am taking control of that path and changing the outcome this time. This takes so much mental and emotional energy on top of just being pregnant that I can't handle the constant questions, comments and concerns of the people peering in. I'm sorry I've shut you all out but I really have done so for my benefit. </div><div><br></div><div>Maybe I'll have him tomorrow. Maybe I won't. When he's here and I am ready to share my story, don't for one second think you'll get out of hearing all about it. I am a sharer, some would say an over-sharer but this is one time in my life where I need the highest amount of privacy and consideration. </div><div><br></div><div>Know that I love you all and I will be back to chat with you all soon. </div><div><br></div><div>Until then, </div><div>Traci</div>Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-48897323952776277262015-01-10T14:59:00.000-07:002015-01-10T14:59:34.102-07:00Why hiring MY doula was life changing It's been about a month since I posted. I am 33 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Parker and myself are doing great! We're perfectly healthy. Jay is a bit busy focusing on his health and fitness journey. I'm glad he has something to focus on other than me. Honestly, being the guy during a pregnancy has to suck. Everything is their fault and everything falls on them to pick up the slack when the exhaustion, nausea or just irritation sets in. He's handled it like a boss and I'm so proud to have my awesome partner during this pregnancy. Kudos to him for trying so hard to be full of grace and love during my ups and downs of this pregnancy.<br />
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During this past month, I've made some huge strides in my inner well being and have come to peace with my decision to home birth. Surprised? I am too! I thought I was resolved and at peace with having a home birth. It's amazing how much you don't know about yourself until you've been put to the test! I started this pregnancy and this journey really, believing that I'd be most comfortable with a home birth if I had a hospital that followed my pregnancy and had a completely history in case I needed to transfer. That was a guise I told myself and the world to hide the fear I felt inside. Deep inside I was using that as my safety net for my fear of not being able to handle a home birth. I was terrified I would freak out, give up and give in to a hospital birth and probably ultimately another cesarean. This fear was so ugly that I kept it from the world. I didn't tell my midwife, my husband or even myself. I couldn't face it. Then the small little tidbit comments started from my doctor at Tripler. If my surgical records weren't there in time, she felt as though my only option was a repeat cesarean. That scared the shit out of me. I came home a complete wreck. With all my knowledge, with all the facts and all the support, it wasn't enough. My confidence wasn't there. I didn't believe *I* could do it. So I let those words shatter my whole world for that day. My midwife tried to reason with me but her truth wasn't my truth, yet. That day I found my confidence and I didn't know it yet. I met a doula on facebook through mutual friends on accident when I was looking at a Hawaii Military Wives group. The day the friend request was accepted was the day I let my doctor shake me to the core. She calmed me, chatted with me and reassured me. She didn't even KNOW me! Even if she didn't, I feel as though she saw how broken I was in that moment and knew I needed the support of someone only like herself. I could be raw and open with her without her questioning why I'm doing this if I'm not sure of it. Jay and I met her soon after and decided immediately that we needed her for this birth. She's already taught us so much. But the biggest thing she's done for us, for me really, is just be there and support my every decision.<br /><br />Shortly after meeting and hiring my doula (Lea), Madeleine started opening up to me more. Our meetings went from patient/doctor to friends and confidants. She started telling me stories of her births and reassuring my fears in a way a friend would. A very medically knowledgeable and brilliant friend but with the kindness and love a friend would show. I attribute this to Lea's presence in my life.<br /><br />Then during my most recent visit with my doctor, my fear took a tight hold of me and elevated my blood pressure. It wasn't "high" but it was higher. Enough for the doctor to comment on it, remind herself that I had pre-eclampsia with my first pregnancy and make a note to watch my BP for further hints of complications. I broke down. Madeleine and Lea have become my go-to people in my crisis mode after speaking with the doctor at Tripler. They're my safe haven. They're my anchor. They're why this birth is going to be the most epic thing in my life. I know things might not go the way I envision them but if Madeleine and Lea are by my side, this birth will be amazing compared to any other I've experienced.<br /><br />Of course not everyone can have Lea specifically but now I understand the very strong push from the natural birthing community for moms-to-be to hire a doula. If you find the doula that meshes and syncs with you so beautifully they are down right essential. It's such a spiritual bond that it's almost difficult to put into words. Maybe I'm just lucky and Lea was literally sent to me for a reason but I urge everyone to find that person who you bond with instantly over tears and sorrow. Those are the people that will be the most supportive and raw people in your life. It's life changing. My doula won't necessarily be that for you but there is a doula out there like this for you. It was honestly terrifying to think of meeting and getting to know doulas because it such an intimate relationship that finding one is almost like dating. That's scary! But believe me when I say the reward is so worth the heartache of searching.<br /><br />Of course I had the knowledge, I had the reasons and the right ideas, I just need the right frame of mind. No research can give you that. I'm as bull headed as they come but deep down I still have insecurities and fears. I let those chip away at me until the doctor found that chip and starting chiseling away too. Lea has helped me seal up those cracks in my resolve and I'm feeling more confident than ever about this birth.<br /><br />So much so that I'm considering not seeing the hospital anymore after 35 weeks. I've come so far, I don't need or want the negative energy in my pregnancy, in my head or sneaking into my birth.<br /><br />Last night during our most recent meeting with Lea, I remembered how much I've been through to get to this place in my pregnancy, in my life and in this birth. This month marks two years since Jay and I decided to get the vasectomy reversal and to try to expand our family. It took us until June to get the reversal, then another year of tears and heartache to get pregnant. I did NOT go through all of that to give up now. If anything those months of emotional roller coaster rides gave me the strength to push through, I just needed to figure out how to access it. Everything has been building up to this birth and I can't let myself down now.<br /><br />The support from my friends has been absolutely amazing and I have to say thank you for not doubting me. Those that doubt me, it's alright. I feel like you've never experienced the trauma that I have and I pray you never do. Just know that each birth is yours and you alone have the power to decide how that baby is coming into the world, be it naturally, induction, c-section or any other method. Become educated about your options, decide what is best for you and your family and don't let a doctor or anyone else try to coerce you into something you aren't comfortable with.<br /><br />I honestly want nothing but the best for each and every one of you. So if you have any questions about my research, my findings and my informed decisions, feel free to ask!<br />
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Since I'm healthy and Parker is healthy as of now, I've been thinking a lot about the "what ifs". I know what if's aren't necessarily a good thing to focus on but I want to have a plan, at least a general plan, in place IF something goes wrong. Like *IF* Parker is Breech?! What do I do? Tripler won't let women deliver a baby vaginally breech, no matter what their previous history is. My midwife isn't comfortable doing it at home since I've never delivered vaginally before. So do I succumb to giving birth via repeat cesarean again or do I fight tooth and nail for a vaginal birth because babies turn even in the last minutes?<br />
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Last week, I saw my physician for my 27 week check up and she made it clear that if she didn't have my surgical records from my previous cesareans then we would have to schedule a repeat c-section. That was a hard blow for me. Fortunately, when I went down stairs to records they had received my surgical records for my last cesarean but not for my first. Hopefully, that is the best option if we only get one. Wouldn't she want at minimum the most recent surgical record since it'll detail what it was like in surgery after the first surgery healed? Of course I worry anyway. What if we don't get my surgical records from eight years ago? Will she be set on scheduling a repeat surgery? Should I start looking for new doctors now or wait until I see her again to decide?<br />
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Then I have my fears. My past experiences haunt me. I won't give up my dreams of giving birth vaginally but my fears still sneak up from time to time. My biggest fear is another emergency c-section. That is the scariest (and more possible) outcome to me. Of course I find death of myself or my baby to be terrifying but it's not as likely a scenario.<br />
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I've had two deliveries, of those two deliveries the failure and emergency c-section was the worst. Not only is it soul crushing to fail (for me at least) but the recovery of an 'emergency cesarean' after hours of your body working tirelessly to give birth vaginally is excruciating and depressing. Lifting my infant was a painful chore for weeks, imagine being here with two very active older children on top of a newborn who is in desperate need of my attention at all times. Walking was damn near impossible for almost a week after the emergency cesarean, imagine trying to do anything outside of the home with three children, two of which are active and some what hyper. I couldn't maintain order the way a parent is supposed to. How would I grocery shop, run errands or go to doctors visits?<br />
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Of course, I want to give birth vaginally but to fail and end up in a c-section anyway is scary. There is no way to know if that will or won't happen. There is no guarantee that everything will go as planned. I'm preparing myself as best as I can but at the end of the day, I'm still scared of enduring that pain again. Hopefully this time around, I'll have my husband home to help me if I do have to have a c-section. He does get ten days paternity leave, with little to no leave left after our emergency leave. If I am lucky, my mom and sister will be here during the birth or at the very least after he's born (hopefully!) to help me out some but they're only here for a week. Hopefully Jay will be able to help even after his paternity leave by having shorter days or changing shifts to accommodate the family's needs. Only time will tell.<br />
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These are just a few of the things on my mind as I near the end of the pregnancy. In the end, things always work out and I'm far more resilient than I give myself credit for. Look at my track record, I've given birth via c-section twice to my babies while my husband was in a war zone. I think that gives me a little bit of "street cred". LOL!<br />
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At 20 weeks and 3 days he was approximately 12 oz and 10 inches long. He's measuring about 4 days ahead of schedule but he has a really tall family so I'm not surprised at all there.<br />
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During the ultrasound, they noticed my cervix is shorter than they like it to be but still in their "okay" range. They want it to be no shorter than 2.5 but prefer it to be greater than 3 and I'm at a 2.6. I go back in on Friday to make sure it's not getting shorter because if it is shortening already that could cause some issues. It is one of the signs of preterm labor. The doctor was explaining to me today that if it is getting shorter, I'll have to go on bed rest and/or eventually have my cervix sewn shut to prevent preterm labor before baby is ready. Of course the one ultrasound is just a snap shot but the follow up on Friday should reveal whether or not I'm at risk. I'm curious if all of this is due to the stress I've been under plus all the traveling I've done the past month.<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-64634131438947491712014-08-17T16:20:00.000-07:002014-08-17T16:20:02.854-07:0012 down, 28 to go! <span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This week I hit 12 weeks into the pregnancy. The chance of miscarriage drops greatly after this week, which is a huge relief. Baby's heartbeat is going strong and I even got a peek at baby at my OB appointment during week 11! </span><br />
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Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-77468364004421226562014-07-19T11:08:00.000-07:002014-07-19T11:11:10.786-07:00Be Still My HeartAfter over a week of trying and searching for the baby's heart beat, I finally broke down and called Crystal to find out what exactly I'm looking for! I've read about it until I thought I knew what I was looking for but evidently I was wrong. I thought I was looking for a fast heart beat of about 150 to 170 bpm but I found out that it can vary depending on the age of the fetus and that as low as 90 bpm to 110 bpm is normal for weeks 7 - 8 but during week 8 it starts to pick up and by weeks 9 - 10 it should be up to 140 to 170 bpm. Of course we are no doctors and we may have even missed a few beats but I had Jay time himself and count the beats for a whole minute and it came out around 91-95 bpm and when we check my pulse to ensure we weren't accidentally listening to my heart beat, mine was about high 70's to low 80's. <br />
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Once we were pretty sure we had found the heart beat, we sat and listened for a while. I was the one holding onto the fetal doppler and the probe that locates the heart beat. I found a good spot and just let it sit there. While listening, I didn't move the probe at all and the heart beat started fading in and out and getting stronger and lighter. We were pretty sure by that point that it was baby and not one of my veins or arteries because they wouldn't move around like that. Jay was pretty excited.<br />
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For those that don't know, Jay and I have had two boys together but each time I found out I was pregnant Jay was on his way to Iraq. He's missed both pregnancies and births of our first two children and he has no idea what this is like at all. So last night, was his first time hearing one of his babies' heart beats from in the womb. As we enter the time of midwife appointments, ultrasounds, and OB appointments, Jay will start to see some of the stuff I went through with both previous pregnancies. So far this first trimester has been a little of both my previous ones. With Jayson, I wouldn't have known I was pregnant besides the exhaustion. With Eli, I was sick as a dog most of the time and by the time the 2nd trimester came, I had lost a little bit of weight because of how nauseous I was. This pregnancy has had a little nausea here and there but sometimes I can't tell I'm pregnant except for I KNOW I saw the two lines and I haven't had my cycle since May! lol<br />
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I was supposed to have an appointment with the OB yesterday but they called and rescheduled it for August 5th since they want me to be past 10 weeks and I'm not yet. Today marks 8 weeks and 4 days so I will be 11 weeks on the day of my OB appointment. I also have a Midwife appointment on August 2nd and I have already scheduled our 3D/4D ultrasound (we didn't do this with the first two) to find out the gender at 15 weeks. Hopefully we'll be able to find out then, they said they can tell as early as 13 weeks but that seems way too early to me. I'm tempted to change our appointment so it's after I'm 16 weeks but I'm just too anxious to wait! When would you do it? After 16 weeks or after 18 weeks or just wait for the normal 20 week ultrasound?<br /><br />Let me hear what you have to say!<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-74922028789492308832014-07-06T11:29:00.000-07:002014-07-06T11:29:45.393-07:00The First Trimester FearsI am now a little bit over the half way mark in my first trimester. The nausea has been off and on for about two or three weeks now. Yesterday was the first time I wasn't able to keep down my meal which wasn't fun at all. The heartburn has been pretty vicious but I have chronic acid reflux anyway so I can't tell if it's from the pregnancy or just my everyday life. I've been trying to not take Nexium as much since it blocks the absorption of iron and my prenatal labs came back borderline anemic. Other than the nausea, heartburn and mood swings, I can hardly tell I'm pregnant! LOL Oh and the random hits of extreme exhaustion. Those all seem like very easily remedied things. There are times when I seriously wonder if this is all real. If this is the baby I've been fighting for this past year. Not that I don't believe that I'm pregnant, it's just so hard to wrap my head around after such a long time of trying for this. There is no heartbeat to listen to (that can really be found yet), our insurance only covers ONE ultrasound and that's to check to make sure growth and size are appropriate around 20 weeks. I can't feel the baby yet, that won't happen for at least eight to ten week, if I'm lucky. I just feel like I'm in limbo until something shows me that everything is progressing the right way in there. It's quite scary after reading blogs, forums and groups of women going through the same thing and lots of them end up in miscarriage. The internet can be valuable to research but also, ignorance is bliss. Not knowing what could happen is so much nicer than knowing the odds of something going wrong.<br /><br />I've been trying very hard to not live in a perpetual state of worry and stress. Most of the time I'm not, but sometimes that desire to know what's going on is just very overwhelming. I purchased a fetal doppler but of course I'm not far enough along to be able to hear the heartbeat on my own yet. I hear the earliest is about 9 weeks and I'm 6 weeks 5 days. According to the hospital, which goes by the LMP, I'm about week later at 7 weeks 4 days. The conception date or ovulation date is more accurate but hospitals don't typically expect a woman to know when she ovulated so they don't even ask for that. I plan on informing them once I see an actually doctor or midwife instead of an in-take nurse. <br />
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In preparation for our HBA2C, Jay and I have been watching documentaries out the wahzoo! We've watched Business of Being Born, More Business of Being Born and Pregnant in America. They're all very informative and inspiring! I am probably as close to the hospital as I could be in this area so I have no concerns there. And as of right now, the hospital it self (represented by the few nurses I've spoke to in person and over the phone) seems very VBAC friendly but I'm just waiting on that good ol' "bait and switch"! I fully expect the doctor to be supportive but express concerns or restrictions on me to VBAC. Then as time progresses the doctor will slowly seem less and less supportive of my desire to labor naturally and eventually try to talk me into scheduling either a repeat c-section or an induction of labor. Both of which are wildly outside of what I feel comfortable with and what I have learned to be the correct route towards a natural birth. Inductions actually increase the risk of c-section by 67%! That's insane! One wrong decision and you're more than 50% likely to end in an surgery! So no inductions for me! JUST SAY NO TO DRUGS! Where did all of THAT education go?! I'm starting to go off on a tangent. My point is natural birth is what is supposed to happen! Yes, complications do arise and the medical interventions are wonderful to have in those RARE cases but these medical interventions are becoming heavily relied on to make the life easier, not on the mother, not on the baby or family but on the doctors! They get to have a nice and tidy 30 minute to an hour c-section and then they are on their merry way to their next patient or home for the night. Look at the statistics! Even my own mother is a statistic! Doctors induce labor during the week to avoid having to come into the hospital over the weekend, especially holiday or long weekends! My mother was induced to avoid labor and birth over Labor day. The doctors wanted their three or four day weekend to be uninterrupted, so what did they do? They induced my mother so she would have her baby earlier. Thankfully nothing went wrong but the risks were there. Were those risks fully explained to the patient before consent was given? Probably not, so many of the risks of induction and c-section are down played due to the doctor/surgeon feeling confident of their methods. But why are they so much more confident in artificial labor and surgical operations than natural labor?! What has happened in the past thirty years that have caused this spike in inductions and c-sections? Medical technology? Maybe, but I think it's more of the doctors relying on this technology rather than them trusting in nature. Pregnant in America really showed how backwards our medical system has become when it comes to births. I'm sure there are amazing interventions out there for things we had never dreamed of fighting but birth isn't an illness to be fought or cured.<br /><br />I wish I had been this educated before I walked into Madigan Army Medical Center in labor with Jayson. I would have known to say no to the epidural, especially as early as 4-5 cm! I would have known it could stall my labor, which it did and I would have known that the pitocin used to start up my stalled labor could send the baby into distress, which it did. So yes my "emergency c-section" was probably necessary, but it was only necessary to save my baby and myself from the interventions that shouldn't have been used on me. <br /><br /><br />So here I am, almost 8 years later, pregnant with my third child and terrified of what might happen all over again. This time I am educated and supported. I am stronger and wiser. But at the end of the day, I can't predict how this will all go down, no matter how educated and prepared I am. I'm just hoping that my body does what it is supposed to do and I have a HBA2C that goes smoothly and without a hitch. I have hired a midwife, who just in one meeting hit it off well with me and I can see us having a very special bond that I really just can't explain. I have a dear friend that has already stepped up and said she'll come out and be my labor support (aka doula). She isn't a doula but she is a wonderful friend who has given birth to 5 beautiful children, two of which were home births. As of right now, besides my midwife, her assistant and my husband, I plan on having my friend Crystal and my mother there with me. I am beyond terrified of my support system failing and breaking my spirit in a moment of weakness but this is a fear that I have due to past experiences. I can't let the past haunt the future. I have to have faith that everyone will hold strong for me and that I can draw that strength in my greatest time of need.<br /><br />But for now, I just wonder if little one in there is doing alright and I can't wait to hear and see them! I'm still torn on whether or not I want to know the sex but Jay wants to know so I feel bad if I withhold that from him. I found out on the last two and he was in Iraq so I feel almost obligated to give him this small part of the pregnancy.<br /><br />Until next time,<br />
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I really feel that this is the right path. I've never felt so confident in my body before today! I just finished the intake paperwork on their website and schedule my first appointment to see her. Today was just an interview/consultation. Not only is she a midwife but she is a Naturopathic Doctor also, which is very refreshing. I plan on keeping her on as baby's pediatrician for the first year so I don't have to hear all the lectures about a delayed immunization plan. She was very accepting of the idea and I loved how laid back and go with the flow she was. Never once did I feel judged for my decisions but instead I felt supported and encouraged to follow my intuition.<br />
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Now to ensure I have a healthy diet, exercise plan and positive mood surrounding this pregnancy to prepare me for labor. It will have been eight years since I've experienced labor by the time I have this baby. I think this time I will prepare better for labor pain management. Feel free to share the methods or classes you took to prepare yourself for labor. I didn't do anything before Jayson and I managed the pain fairly well up until I was "coerced" into an early epidural. I honestly believe that my sheer stubbornness and will to do this naturally COULD pull me through this but I'd prefer to be as prepared as possible instead of believing my body will tell me what to do when I get there.<br />
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I am approximately 4 weeks along, which is very early and the risk of miscarriage is still high. The risk should drop as I near and go past 12 weeks. Even with being fairly early, the exhaustion, heart burn and slight nausea have kicked in. So far it hasn't been unbearable but I feel like it will become difficult as I approach 12 weeks. <br />
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I'm feeling excited, relaxed and very sure about the path I have chosen for my birth. Even if we end up in the hospital, at least I KNOW I did all that I could to avoid unnecessary medical interventions. My midwife seems very sure about when and why we would want to do a hospital transfer and with everything we discussed today, I feel confident in following her guidance. Jay also seemed very at ease with everything too which gave me even more clarity about the path we have chosen.<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-8318585404196911712014-06-15T09:35:00.001-07:002014-06-15T09:35:32.480-07:00Shit Just Got RealWe're pregnant! <span style="text-align: center;">It's been a very long stressful year and after everything we've been through I wanted a short and simple way to tell everyone. I am truly sorry if you were upset or hurt by me not personally telling you. It wasn't about any one individual. I just didn't want to deal with the stress of calling everyone to tell them.<br /><br />Anyway, we're excited and can't wait! We have 9 months to prepare and start thinking of names. Who wants to guess the sex of the baby?? I'm still torn on finding out or not.</span><br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-38958763802773317832014-05-23T12:44:00.002-07:002014-05-23T15:53:41.623-07:00From Arizona to Hawaii and Everything in between!The move went smoothly, comparatively to how it could have gone. Our stuff made it with minimal damage. We went to Disney World during our PCS leave and it was AWESOME! Until the night before we were supposed to leave, well for me anyway. I started having some strange pains in my abdomen and by two in the morning, was in so much pain I could barely sleep. I went to the ER and found out that my appendix was blocked and needed removed. I had an emergency appendectomy at about 4pm the day we were supposed to fly out. We got our flights changed and managed to fly out the following day. The travels from Orlando to San Diego are blurry. I was 1 day post-op, drugged up on pain meds, being shuttled around in a wheel chair. I remember sleeping a lot and that's about it. We made it to Hawaii and have been enjoying it a lot!<br />
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We moved into our house a week ago and it's gorgeous! I love it and I can't wait until it's completely decorated the way I want. We're slowly getting it into shape. I've posted lots of pictures on facebook and plan on posting more as it gets unpacked and situated.<br />
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On May 14th, I began cycle 12 since starting this journey to become pregnant. I'm 9 days in and we decided that since we have our house, we should start trying again. It's been a long break with some stress in there but it's nice to be trying again. We tried a little since my last update but with no luck and mostly not actively trying and not actively preventing. Hopefully if we don't get pregnant in the next couple of months, we can discuss our options with our doctors to see what our next plan of action is here in Hawaii. I saw my doctor two weeks ago and she said that the IVF wait list is about a year and half long. That's a long time to wait but I am starting to think maybe we should get on the list now and see if we can get pregnant on our own in the mean time. Maybe it's time to speak with my doctor again.<br />
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So, here we are... Trying to conceive again. Hopefully I don't get spun up in the stress again. I haven't been temping or using my OvaCue, which has helped keep the stress down but we're just beginning so we'll see how well that works out.<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-80213116301601564862014-01-20T10:02:00.001-07:002014-01-20T11:18:05.936-07:00Cycle #5, Month 7My blood test (or Betas) came back negative at 1.2. My cycle started 3 days later than normal which of course was torture. The whole last cycle on medication was torture. I thought about doing a second medicated cycle but I just couldn't bring myself to voluntarily put myself and family through that again. <div><br></div><div>With the move coming up quickly and needing to get so much done and ready for the children and animals before we go, I just can't let trying to conceive dominate my thoughts and cripple my motivation. So there might not be many updates between now and when we get to Hawaii. We won't be trying as actively as we have been in the past but we also won't be preventing. This has been a very rough road for me and I think having something else to focus on will do good things for us. I was in such a better place when Jay was away for school so I think the move might be a similar type of break for me. </div><div><br></div><div>It is hard to deal with a failed cycle, let alone a failed medicated-paid-for-IUI cycle. Hopefully the stress diverted towards the move will be just what my body needs to let things happen. I've heard on many occasions to just stop stressing it and it'll happen but that's so incredibly hard when I know so much about all the complications that can happen to block our efforts especially with having the reversal thrown in there.</div><div><br></div><div>If there is one piece of advice and wisdom I've gained out of all of this, it's don't ever have surgery to prevent pregnancy. No vasectomy, no tubes tied because you never know what the future holds. Use temporary prevention if you have to but just don't make any permenant surgical decisions that you might (and probably will) regret later. </div><div><br></div><div>Until next time, </div><div>Traci</div>Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-88380876634367497472014-01-13T14:59:00.001-07:002014-01-13T14:59:04.015-07:00Testing time!!So I have been testing out the trigger (the ovidrel shot) and finally it disappeared around 8-9 days past the trigger. 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So I'll find out for certain if I'm pregnant or not tomorrow. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">On the 7th, I went in to have my progesterone checked. It came back low at 7.37 so I started progesterone supplements last week. It's supposed to help but so far it's caused a lot of pregnancy symptoms! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Hopefully tomorrow brings good news! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Until then,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Traci</div><br></div><br>Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-44915296770093306402014-01-01T10:46:00.002-07:002014-01-01T10:46:31.210-07:00Renewed HopeWhew! This holiday season has been the BUSIEST EVER! So Christmas Eve, I thought I was ovulating but then I got sick over Christmas which is known to delay ovulation. I started feeling better over the weekend and on Sunday, I got another "Peak" reading on my Clear Blue Digital Ovulation predictor test kit. So Monday morning I called the RE and we went in for an ultrasound that afternoon. The nurse practitioner said that I had not ovulated and gave me a prescription for Ovidrel 250 µg to do that afternoon. We went immediately to Safeway and got the medication. The pharmacist informed me that if I was not going to be taking the shot immediately that it needed to be refrigerated. AHHH! We were an hour and half away from home!! How were we going to refrigerate it?! Well, I had Jay give me the injection in the parking lot of Safeway and off we went with our day. The kids got to spend some time (and lots of money, Thank you Grandpa Orzeck!!) at Toys R Us! 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The next morning, we got up early and made the drive back out to Tucson to do the IUI. It was uncomfortable but not horrible. The sample Jay gave was not the greatest but we went on with the IUI and hopefully we'll know in a few weeks if it worked or not. The IUI was with a post-wash sample of 3.5 million with 99% motility. It's not what I was expecting so I was rather disappointed yesterday but today I feel as though my hope is renewed and that we have as good a chance this month as we have any other time we successfully got pregnant. Now the wait begins but after the last few weeks I've had, I'm thankful to be in the "sit and wait" time frame. It's relaxing and less stressful. The only thing I feel like I'm missing is a beach with a warm summer day! LOL<br />
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I started feeling bad on Christmas eve but I went to my appointment anyway. Jay and I started taking some airborne in hopes that we'd be able to fight off whatever it was we were starting to feel. Jay managed to fight it off. I was not as lucky. Christmas I was feeling worse but still managed to get through the day fairly smoothly. Yesterday was probably the worst day of all. My temp was high and my head was pounding. So I asked Jay to call the RE and cancel our appointment because not only am I sick but now my oldest son is feeling really bad too. Jay and I have decided to move forward with a medicated "natural" cycle. Meaning, we're just gonna go at it like normal people and hope for the best! LOL Of course being sick isn't very sexy and I haven't felt "up for the task" but hopefully we can get back to our trying. With the higher temps due to clomid, possibly false positives on my clear blue digital advanced ovulation predictor kit, and the sickness throwing the rest of my temps off, it's really hard to know if I have or have not already O'd. I'm still testing with cheap ovulation test strips and those have not shown a positive so I'll keep going with that until I either get a peak or AF shows. I'm 14 days in to my cycle and if my ovulation date is like my past ovulations I should be ovulating between CD15 and 19. Only time will tell! Wish us luck! We're gonna need it!<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-55322196718806216642013-12-18T15:00:00.001-07:002013-12-18T15:02:35.406-07:00Clomid Side EffectsI am five days into my cycle and only three days into my five day prescription of clomid. I am already feeling side effects. Yesterday it started with just the crazed hormones. I'm not as patient as I usually am with the boys which results in a lot of yelling and frustrated corrections to them. Poor kiddos. Then last night I had a nose bleed which was weird. Then it happened again this morning. I think it has a lot to do with the hot flashes. So far I have hot flashes and craze hormonal mood swings. Let's hope they subside when I stop taking the medication! The kids are praying, I'm sure!<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-28033445065496202152013-12-14T12:30:00.006-07:002013-12-14T12:31:38.063-07:00Cycle Day 1 of our IUI Cycle<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> Today is CD 1! (Cycle Day 1) So immediately I called the clinic to ask them what I should do. I had an appointment scheduled for the 19th of December because I thought I would start closer to then instead of now but my body decided differently! Thank goodness I have all of my medications ready! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> On Monday (CD 3), I will start my clomid and continue taking it for five days. This is supposed to help my body create and mature my eggs better. There is a possibility of multiples as it can cause a few eggs to be released at the same time. Generally the risk of twins while on Clomid is about 10%, though it can be higher depending on the person, (<a href="http://infertility.about.com/od/infertilitytreatments/f/clomid_twins.htm" target="_blank">Info came from here</a>). At this point, I just hope I get pregnant sooner than later. The risk of having triplets or more is less than 1% so I'm not even worried about that. These numbers would be so much higher if we went on with IVF! So thank goodness for our opportunity to do IUI instead of IVF! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> While speaking to the clinic, I was informed that I will be needing the HCG injections which I assume will be to trigger ovulation so we can schedule the IUI precisely with ovulation. They wanted to see me on CD 12 but that is Christmas Day so I will be going in on Christmas Eve to have an ultrasound to check if my eggs are ready to be triggered. I will probably then be advised on when to administer the trigger shot and an appointment will be scheduled for 36 hrs after I am given the trigger shot to do the IUI (intrauterine insemination aka artificial insemination). I also have progesterone injections from the prescription I was given when we were going to do IVF so I will discuss the use of those after the IUI when I see the doctor on the 24th. Progesterone helps with the thickening of the lining and the implantation of the egg. Hopefully, I will be given the go ahead on those.<br /><br /> I'm excited and nervous! It's all starting. Hopefully this isn't a waste but I think that if we don't get pregnant this cycle, we will do a medicated non-IUI cycle next month. Hopefully the doctor is ok with that. </span></div>
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Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-37361123566431942122013-12-11T13:53:00.005-07:002013-12-11T14:06:41.307-07:00Breath of fresh air! <span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I get a phone call about one my prescriptions. Turns out the clinic forgot to fax over the script and during the phone call the gentleman told me that it was going to be $1432 for the medication. YIKES! So I call the clinic upset because I was told it was $35 for the medication when it was really $35 PER vial! That's a big difference. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">At least I was thoughtful enough to ask what the results of the sample Jay left to be frozen yesterday were.<br /><br />His sperm count is 37 million with 43.2% motility. Which is AMAZING. We had thought he had scarred over!! Now he's got numbers better than anything we've seen!! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b><i><u><span style="color: #660000;">WHICH MEANS WE DO NOT HAVE TO DO IVF!! Yay!</span></u></i></b> The doctor called in a prescription of clomid and we'll do an IUI during my next cycle. If this doesn't work then I don't mind moving forward to IVF eventually but I'd rather not spend that kind of money if we don't need to.</span>Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-64290610875074255102013-12-11T06:25:00.000-07:002013-12-11T09:09:40.422-07:00The beginning of our IVF journey<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> Yesterday we had our first appointment to start our IVF cycle. I received four medications. That turned into a debacle trying to get those scripts filled. Which then made me realize that once I start these meds, I'm going to be 100 times worse. I'm going to be given hormones to stimulate my cycle. I feel pity on my husband, my children and any poor soul I encounter in the next 30-45 days. Please pray for them, and me. lol </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> All this stuff starts next week, I have an appointment scheduled for the first day of my cycle. Then, hopefully they will explain to me how all of these medications work, how to take them and when to take them. I'm feeling very confused and out of the loop on how this all works. The staff doesn't give a whole lot of details on what's happening and how it all works. Hopefully, they will at least explain the drugs and how to take them, when to take them and the appointments we have to make at our next appointment when my cycle starts. Until then, I'm reading what I can online.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> I found this general chart of the flow of IVF. This is helpful because now I have a general timeline. Thank goodness for the internet right?! </span><br />
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<strong>Trigger Shot</strong><br />
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1st - Approx. 6 ½-7 weeks pregnant<br />
2nd - Approx. 7 ½ - 8 ½ weeks pregnant<br />
Release to OB at 8-10 weeks pregnant</div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So as long as my cycle starts on time (C'mon Dec 19th!!), my time line is looking like we'd be able to find out if we're pregnant on Feb 1st or so. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The more I read into this process, the more real it becomes. Let's pray one cycle is all we need! I'm feeling nervous, anxious and scared. At the same time, I'm excited, happy and can't wait to find out if this works. Is it too soon for baby names?? LOL </span></div>
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Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-46652848077113592472013-12-09T11:20:00.001-07:002013-12-09T12:04:18.209-07:00The Break is Over!I took a much needed break from TTC and the whole process. Mostly to gather myself, mourn the idea I had that didn't pan out and reformulate a plan, if we decided to move forward.<br />
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In October, my husband went off to a 5.5 week school. The kids and I drove out to the east coast for his graduation and we just arrived home yesterday. During our 3 day drive home, Jay and I discussed our options at length. We have decided that if we are going to do this, we should just go ahead with IVF w/ ICSI. I'm not sure when we will start this but I'm hoping we can start it next cycle. I will be calling our fertility specialist soon to discuss the options and how quickly we can get started.<br />
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Of course, our minds can change at any moment. This is a very big decision and we will be talking about it constantly. We always discuss the pros and cons and things come up with out notice. But as of right now, this is our plan. Hopefully it works out for us.<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-46447132902730858572013-09-25T13:30:00.004-07:002013-09-25T15:33:58.643-07:00Thoughts and Pros & Cons of AdoptionLast Friday, the RE gave Jay a prescription for Prednisone. Today he was finally able to get this prescription filled and will start taking them tonight. I've heard varying stories as to the success of prednisone. Some say that it helped and they got pregnant after taking it. Some say it helped temporarily by reducing the swelling and some sperm were able to get through. Then some say that it didn't help at all because they had already scarred over. Because of this all being a huge gamble one way or another, Jay and I have differing opinions on what we feel we should do. He would like to wait to see if the meds work and I want to go ahead with IVF. Again, affording IVF is a concern and right now I'm not sure we can afford it with out financing.<br />
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Adoption is also one of our options that we've been discussing. There for a short while, it was on the top of our list. I did research on all of our options and the more appealing one became, the deeper my research would become on that subject.<br />
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<li>Give someone a better life by opening up our family to them</li>
<li>If we adopt through foster care, it's cheaper and less risky of losing our paid fees.</li>
<li>No stressful and expensive medical procedures</li>
<li>Choice of race, age, sex of child we're adopting</li>
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<li>No pregnancy, no birth experienced together</li>
<li>Potential unknown health or behavioral issues</li>
<li>Very expensive if seeking infant adoption or overseas adoption</li>
<li>Strenuous process - home studies, lots of paperwork and interviews</li>
<li>Risk of child not bonding with us</li>
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Jay was completely on board for moving directly to adoption. I was more skeptical. The cost is very comparable to a round of IVF w/ICSI and the process could take months if not years to complete depending on our requirements for our potential child. State adoptions are typically cheaper while adoption agencies charge upwards of $20,000 per placement. With state adoptions, the children are typically older and a lot of them have siblings trying to be placed with them. With agency adoptions, there are more options of age, sex and race. I don't feel as though race is a huge priority of ours. I feel as though if adoption is the route we take, when we meet that child that is OUR child, it won't matter what their race is.</div>
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As of right now, I am fearful of the age gap between our next child and our current children. If we were to get pregnant now, there will be almost a 5 year gap between Eli and the baby and a 7 year gap between Jayson and the baby. If we adopt, we could be looking at a process that takes months to complete, but we could adopt a child close to our children's age. To set myself at easy about having a baby, I decided that I'd try for two babies so they'd be close in age together, but if we go with IVF that will be harder to do since it's so expensive. If we adopt we could try to adopt a set of siblings close to our boys' age. If we decide to do the reversal, it'll put us on hold for a little while before being able to have the surgery but the possibility of multiple children of our own conceived naturally is back on the table. I suppose I should do a bigger scale pros and cons list with all possible options so we can see what's more likely suitable for us.<br />
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I'm still leaning more towards IVF for now because I feel like it has better chances of working out for us and sooner. If you'd like to donate to help us either afford IVF or a reversal re-do, please click the link above or to the right of the blog. </div>
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Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-58254228214242824552013-09-24T11:01:00.002-07:002013-09-24T11:15:52.856-07:00Vasectomy Re-Do Pros and ConsAnother one of our options after Jay has scarred over, is to have another vasectomy reversal done. With his original reversal being a failure, I do not believe we would go through the military again. We called the International Center for Vasectomy Reversals to get an idea of how much we would have to pay for a re-do and before any discounts, their average charge is $9,800. Which is about $3,700 more than doing IVF but it gives us unlimited tries to get pregnant <i style="font-weight: bold;">IF </i>it works. None of these options are guarantees.<br />
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<li>One time fee for the surgery (unlike IVF which is paid every time we attempt to get pregnant)</li>
<li>Unlimited tries at getting pregnant (if it is a successful surgery)</li>
<li>Can possibly conceive naturally</li>
<li>Less likely to need IVF</li>
<li>If pregnancy is accomplished, we experience pregnancy and birth together.</li>
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<li>More expensive than one round of IVF ($9,800 before military discount for Surgery vs. $6100 w/ discount for IVF w/ ICSI)</li>
<li>Jay has to go through surgery and recovery all over again</li>
<li>We will have to wait until Jay is done with school in order to have surgery which means we can't do it until March</li>
<li>Risk of failure - No guarantee.</li>
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Like I said, we're leaning more towards IVF w/ICSI but I wanted to write out the different pros and cons so that we (and all of you) could see what are the pros and cons to each option.<br />
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<b>Jay if there are any pros or cons that you would like to add, please do so but in a different color so we can differentiate between my pros and cons and yours.</b><br />
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I encourage everyone to add comments of pros and cons that they may have thought of that we haven't. All suggestions are welcome but please know that it might not be a priority for us and might not change our minds. </div>
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Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-68644193216038685542013-09-23T15:18:00.004-07:002013-09-24T13:43:03.512-07:00IVF Pros & Cons ListWell the results came back and Jay's hormone levels are fine, which is good and bad. Good because he's healthy, YAY! Bad because it's his hormones which is something that could be corrected.<br />
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The sample he gave had sperm though none were moving but they were able to freeze two vials. These aren't good enough for IUI so this month is a bust. Next cycle I can start clomid (or similar) to stimulate ovulation so they can harvest eggs for IVF. Since the sperm are non-motile, we'll have to do IVF with ICSI. Which means that instead of putting my egg and some sperm in a dish and let the sperm try to fertilize the egg, they'll have to take a single sperm and inject it into the egg under a microscope. Then we wait to see if the eggs fertilize and then they transfer them to me and we hope they implant.<br />
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Here are some of the pros and cons of IVF.... it's not our only option but it's the one I'll focus on today. Tomorrow, Jay or I will discuss the pros and cons of another option.<br />
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<u><i>Pros of IVF w/ICSI (If it works)</i></u><br />
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experience pregnancy together.<br />
experience the birth together.<br />
biological child.<br />
know the medical history of the family.<br />
pick out names together.<br />
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spend thousands of dollars trying ($5550-6100 per try with military discount)<br />
don't have a guarantee that it will work (42.5%-50% depending on the doctors success rate)<br />
might experience failed pregnancies<br />
have possible side effects of medications (clomid has side effects of being highly hormonal while on it)<br />
might not get pregnant.<br />
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<br />Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3658005772428944321.post-26470947479170822572013-09-20T17:15:00.002-07:002013-09-20T17:15:58.308-07:00Low Sperm Count, Cryobanks and New OptionsFirst, the reason we saw the RE is because Jay had an SA done on Wednesday and his counts came back at 200,000 sperm with none of them moving. There could be any number of reasons that the sperm count is that low. Scarring is one of them. That's the one we're terrified of and the one that means that it's over. Low testosterone or abnormal FSH levels, both of these can be corrected by medication. Infection is another reason and corrected by antibiotics. The last, less likely to me, reason is that it's just an off day, week or month for Jay's sperm count and they'll be back soon. HA! I don't buy that for a second. I believe there is something going on and we need to do what we can, when we can to fix it. Hopefully it's one of the ones that can be corrected with medication and not it's not scarring over.<br />
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If it scars over, we are done trying naturally. We would have to have a re-do or an extraction, both of which are costly. An extraction means that we'd HAVE to do IVF w/ ICSI which costs $5550-6100 depending on where we do it (HI or AZ) and that does not include the cost of the extraction.<br /><br />If we go the route of a re-do on the reversal, that will cost us around $9800 (before military discount, still waiting to hear back on that) but we'd get unlimited chances at trying if it is successful. But the cost is higher than IVF, and IVF is already really expensive.<br />
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Another option Jay and I have discussed is adoption. This seems more likely for us because I feel as though it's less risky financially. We wouldn't be paying for a roll of the dice, like with IVF.<br />
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Of course the RE told us not to worry yet, it is to soon to worry. He had blood drawn to test the testosterone and FSH to see if the are low and we'll go from there. Jay also gave a sample for preservation and if it's any good it'll be frozen but if not, it'll be disposed of. The doctor wants us to try IUI this cycle if the sample is good enough for it. I go back on Friday for a follow up. The clinic said we'd find out next week if the sample was good and the results of the blood tests. Then we'll know if IUI is happening, if IVF is possible and if the sample was sent to the cryobank.<br /><br />Right now, I'm still under the impression that the VR is scarring over and that we'll have to choose another route besides natural conception, be it IVF or adoption, or maybe we'll just be done. It's a lot to process and decide. We'll be deciding for a while I believe.Tracihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803092751081070254noreply@blogger.com0